And so it is that I prep once again to leave the United States. My bags are slumped beside me, a crisply new book (Gun, Germs, and Steel) in my backpack waiting for my endless airport layovers and my anal-retentively neat morning checklist ready to see me on my way with all my power cords, bags, books, toothbrush and water bottles in tow.
Can I just say, I’m seriously psyched.
It’s hard to describe how right this feels. You’d think that leaving is old-hat now, I’ve done my fair-share of goodbyes over the past two and a half years, but this is different.
This trip feels less epic but yet very right.
Hours before I left on my round the world trip I was an absolute mess; I had been careening toward the breakdown for days and my best friend in LA found me curled in a ball sobbing on her bed. I released the weeks and weeks of stressing about vaccinations, bills, the “right” clothes for my trip, the blog, and the endless days of solitude and open road.
To call it anything other than fear would be a lie. It was a single culminating moment of terror. Brief but real.
This time is different. I know how to say my goodbyes as “see ya soons” instead, and I know I can come back in the blink of an eye (how spectacularly random was that 12 day turn-around time in Bali last fall?!).
It also feels so right. The fear is gone because I know the world is such a small place. It’s huge, but consumable…if that makes any sense…it’s no longer the scary “unknown.”
I also have no attachment to a plan this time around.
The “p” word has been thrown in my direction a lot lately.
What are your plans for Thailand? How long do you plan to stay? Will you travel?
Truly. I head north to live in Chiang Mai as soon as I arrive and will be living with the oh-so-lovely Jodi (Legal Nomads) in a super cute house she found. Beyond that, I simply surrender to wherever life takes me.
You see, it’s been a solid few weeks in Shannonland. Better than solid. Freakin’ awesome if I have to be honest.
And I can’t pinpoint specific reasons why it’s so awesome, but everything circling my life is aligning so very, very nicely.
Joseph Campbell remarked to Bill Moyers in the Power of Myth:
Follow your bliss. If you do follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while waiting for you, and the life you ought to be living is the one you are living. When you can see that, you begin to meet people who are in the field of your bliss, and they open the doors to you. I say, follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.
The path to bliss isn’t travel for all people, I get that. Some of my friends are jiving on completely different paths (baby-toting and all). But there’s something to say for heading in your own right direction, how much easier life seems.
I’m not entirely sure if any single decision put me on this synchronous path but it has me completely enthused for Thailand and the opportunities lying ahead, and all the excellence I can’t wait to share with you all :)